Sympathetic Ink 
Saskatoon by Night Arts and Literature Revue 
June 19th, 1999
 

Impatient Transcriptions  

 
 
Forbidden Desire 

Ages ago it was nothing 
years ago it was nothing 
Days ago it was nothing 
Tonight it is FORBIDDEN 

 Sitting by the ocean in the dark of the night there is nothing 
 Hours pass by unnoticed. 
 There a young women sits by the water. 
 She is innocent, she is pure. 

Ages ago it was nothing 
years ago it was nothing 
Day ago it was nothing 
Tonight it is FORBIDDEN 

 tonight will be the night 
 step along the beach 
 get closer to the young women 
 gather your strength, set your heart 

Ages ago it was nothing 
Year ago it was nothing 
Day ago it was nothing 
Tonight it is FORBIDDEN 

 She turns with a slight smile 
 see the water’s reflection in her eyes 
 know you will do it 
 This is the night, this has to be the night 
Ages ago it was nothing 
Years ago it was nothing 
Days ago it was nothing 
Tonight it is FORBIDDEN 

 The time has finally come 
 ready of your only desire 
  NO 
 Tonight it is FORBIDDEN 
 
Ages ago it was nothing 
Years ago it was nothing 
Days ago it was nothing 
Tonight it is FORBIDDEN 
 
     - by K.D. 
 

The First Apostle 

Do you know what I wish for 
in the dark of night 
lights turned low 
cast shadows crisp and false 
in the pitch I 
reach for 

Perfection 

     - by Jillian Bell 

 
 
The Nocturne 

Solace 
Faded light 
An end to the oppressive 

Soft and silent 
Ascending 
Luminescent 

Eldritch, eerie 
Bathing the mundane 
Absolving 

Inundating 
Awakening the dream 
Loosing the ethereal 

Nexus of phantasy 
Haven for the soul 
The Nocturne 

     - anonymous 
 
 

Found Poem #2 

It seems like the end of the world 
it’s in this moment   right now   hold on 
warm summer nights     storm on the horizon 
(i love you) 
though I lie so still 
an anthem           for the obsessed 
i blame you 

i get so lost sometimes     and the night would be enough          only you exist here 
I’ll know you by the thunderclap 
it feels like nothing matters 
believe it or not              right on through you 
keep on, keep on                     keep on 
all my life, I’ve been blind      You will rise 
or pull me down 
only time will tell 

    - by Jillian Bell 

 

I’m a little crackpot 
To be sung to the tune of : "I'm a Little Teapot" 

I'm a little crackpot, slightly skewed. 
I kill people. -- Hey, it's food. 
When I get all filled up, see me grin. 
Evil’s subjective; it's not a sin. 

    - Composed by Suzi Ens and Alan Hiebert 
 
 
 

Extraneous Information™
 
“Mr.  and Mrs.  America, you are wrong.  I am not the king of the Jews, nor am I a hippie cult leader.  I am what you have made of me, and the mad dog devil killer fiend leper is a reflexion of your society.  Whatever the outcome of this madness that you call...Christian Justice, you can know this : In my mind’s eye, my thoughts light fires in your cities”   - Charles Manson

Harlot in her costume of death
Saint with lies upon his breath
locked together under quirk of fate
beckoning welcome at Passion’s gate.
A stolen kiss, forbidden touch
Needing to feel, breaching trust
Dreams are all they’ll ever share;
no Deity can heed this prayer.

My body is not attached to me...you see, we are not one and the same, my body and me.  I feel on the outside, briefly, fleetingly, and on the inside I yearn for one thing.  And while my body is not me (which is almost always), it plays and hurts and fucks and that is the extent of my body’s pleasures.  My sex does not define me; I am indifferent.  The blood runs in my veins but there is little other existence.  I am not within me but rather exist separately - fundamentally dichotomized.  The breath within me, the voice in my throat, all of this is not me.  The heart that beats - that is not me.  I do not know where I am, but your touch is hollow, sinful pleasure.  I care for you, of course...or at least, something cares for you which I am presuming is me.  But I don’t love you.  Not that way, not this way, not ever.  You are beautiful, but you are part of me-which-is-not-me.  They must not see.  They must be blind.  The eyes you look into see nothing of you because they do not love you.  The hands you feel do not caress you; they mock you.  The breath you hear is not breathed for you; I do not utter your name.  I know now where I am.  He takes me and makes me whole.  This must be pure love, for when we kiss, my lips are all of me.  And when I caress him, my fingertips are all of me.  And when we look at one another, my eyes are all of me.  And together we are all of me.  I can feel my heart beating when we are together.  Kisses of moonlight, substantial only in that they are not. Transient flashes of hopeful reacquaintance.  My love is as the night; cool and constant.  The night shall always be.  There are days of sunlight blocked by moon’s shadow, but night is eternal.  My love envelops, caresses, kisses the surface with such longing.  The cool warmth of dusk, the ache of dawn..these are within my grasp; within my realm.  He is the entirety of the universe, and I its darkness.  I fold around him as waves.  I crack and wither and become my own shell as he hovers above me, promising with wind and fulfilling with tears.  He is substance to my mist.

 
Saskatoon By Night Spotlight - NIKKI VALENTINE
 
(by Mark Brunsdon)

Mark Brunsdon: Hi Nikki.  Can I call you Nikki?

Nikki Valentine: Sure can.

MB: Keen!  Welcome to the third Saskatoon By Night Spotlight.   Are you excited?

NV: It’s nice to be here, sir.

MB: Sir???  Uh, call me Mark. So, um, tell me a little about yourself.  God... did that ever sound like a pick-up line... I’m sorry.

NV: What’s there to tell?  I’m a lady from the south.  Well, that’s what my parents would like to think.  What would you like to know?

MB: I’LL ASK THE QUESTIONS HERE MISSY!!!  Hehe...I’ve always wanted to say that... seriously, tell me a little about your history and stuff.

NV: My history is pretty short in Kindred terms.

MB: So you’re what they call one of those Neonate things?

NV: I suppose I am, but I am pretty powerful for one of those Neonate things.  I am from San Antonio,  Texas.  My sire sent me up here for Benito to watch over me, because he got tied up in one of his other projects, and Benito did owe him a favour, so...

MB: I’ll take your word for it.  Getting beaten by cute chicks is hard on my ego.  Well, I guess my next question would be : How was your Embrace?  Hard, easy, violent, gentle? 

NV: I don’t think the Embrace is ever easy, but mine was quite odd.

MB: In what way?

NV: My Sire was rather busy with his project and couldn’t find the time to come up here to do the dirty deed himself.  The necessary blood was FedExed.

MB: You’re kidding.

NV: No, I’m not.

MB: Bitter?

NV: (long pause) No, I’m fine.

MB: So I’m guessing there wasn’t really any sibling rivalry or anything to contend with.  Except from the Fed Ex guy.

NV: The Fed Ex guy didn’t know what he was carrying.  The only things I have had to worry about have been Laz and Benito... what a bunch of overprotective Den Mothers.

MB: I pity you... those guys... I dunno... anyway.  How has the struggle to maintain your humanity been?  Being as young as you are, do you think it’ll be hard work?

NV: I suppose when I’m as old as Laz I might have difficulty, but so far so good.

MB: Ok, well, why did your Sire send you to Saskatoon of all places?  I mean, was Benito here or did he bring you here or what?

NV: Benito was here already; I was sent up here to stay out of trouble.

MB: Bit of a hellcat eh?  Cool.  Little did he know eh?

NV: He still doesn’t.  He won’t get to read this will he?

MB: I’ll see what I can do.  When you arrived in Saskatoon did you just shack up with Benito or did he hook you up with a swinging bachelorette pad or what?
 

  NV: Well, we didn’t really have a place for me to stay so I guess I did “shack up” with Benito and Laz.  It was quite a party actually.  Black leather and mirrors.  (Laughter)

MB: (blushing furiously) Zoinks!! So,  how does a guy get to be a member of your herd anyway?

NV: There’s no real prerequisites...

MB: (I’m IN!!) Anyhoo, How has your stay been so far?  Say, how long have you been in Saskatoon? 

NV: Interesting.  I have seen a lot in the last 28 months.  There have been a lot of new faces.  This city has a rotating door type population.

MB: Ok, well, what are your strong points? If we contacted your Sire or the Prince of the domain you just came from what would she tell us about you?

NV: They’d probably tell you I’m nice to look at, that I take nice pictures, and that I’m a fun ghoul to party with.  A lot has changed since then.

MB: Well, ya died since then so, yeah! Have you associated with any famous or infamous Kindred?  Our readers want to know!

NV: Hmmm, I suppose Lochiver did hit on me profusely, does that count?  He wanted to take me to some Sabbat city in Italy.  I also knew Spider.  I hung out with Crimson though.

MB: Ah...Spider Lite.

NV: (laughing) 

MB: Ok...If you could have anything, do anything, or be anything, what would it be or what would you do?

NV: That’s a tough question.

MB: That’s why they pay me the big bucks.

NV: (laughing) I suppose I’d like to have a chance to take some pictures of the sunset in the desert again.  I dunno, I’ve never really thought about it.

MB: Well, you have forever to think about it now.  Do you have any plans for future Progeny?

NV: Yeah right!!

MB: Still too young for children eh? (laughs)   Ok... since we’ve discussed your strengths... how about your weaknesses?

NV: Well as Laz puts it, I can bench press a Buick, so...

MB: *blink blink* How is that a weakness exactly?

NV: Considering my feminine charms, it can be a bit of a hindrance.  You commented earlier that your ego couldn’t take a beating... well....

MB: I see your point.  Are you satisfied with the political situation in Saskatoon?  Is there anything you’d want changed?

NV: Everything seems to be running pretty well, but I hope Jack comes back soon so Laz will stop whining. 

MB: OK... well, thanks for your time and stuff, any plans for the future of the city?

NV: I’d like to see the night life improve in the near future, plan a Toreador Ball, and have my Sire and other important Toreador visit us.

MB: Say, can I get an invitation to that Ball?

NV: If you’re a good boy....

MB: (blushing again) hehehe

Well, thanks for your time, and I’ll see you rat bastiges next issue with another fact filled interview... Ciao for now...

In The Darkest Night
Chapter 2 - The Hunt
By Tim Stobbs

    Ah, the hunt, there is no feeling quite like it.  Diane and I usually hunt together, unlike most of our kind we do not hunt without cause.  We hunt the scum of the human race, we hunt the cruel and the wicked, those who are guilty, but live on unpunished. Of course even vampires make a mistake once in a while, and we would kill someone whom we thought was guilty, but was innocent, a shame really.  We used to hunt cut-throats in the old days, but this new century has brought forth a new breed of scum, drug dealers.  The dealers sell poison to the people, they corrupt the young and take much more away from society as a whole than the cut-throats ever did.  So we do what the police and the court systems cannot do, we punish them.  We take them in our arms in a loving embrace of death, their lives spill over our lips in a hot rush, and they die, unable to harm any more.
    This night we had been following the trail of a major partner in the main drug ring in south London.  His name was Michael Davidson.  He had personally caused over thirty deaths, and by selling his poison, he had killed thousands more.  Then the bastard got rich off the sale of his poison and bought his big fancy house and fine tailor-made black suits.
    Michael had been up on charges twice, both times between bribes and his high priced lawyer; he had gotten off without a “slap on the wrist” as the modern saying goes.  Now this was a man deserving of justice. Vampire style, of course.
    We first arrived at his Victorian house shortly after 9:00pm.  It was a warm spring night, the sun had set only a few minutes ago.  Diane swept the house looking for his mind, but he had already left.  Diane read the minds of the servants and found out that he was headed for the airport, to catch a flight to New York.
     Using the dark speed, we ran to the airport, a mere rush of air to mortals as we passed, for they could not keep up with our lightning quick movements long enough to actually see us running.  As we arrived in the terminal, Diane and I read mortals' minds, looking for someone who had seen Michael, but I did not get a single image of his face from them at all.  So while Diane, who was much stronger than me with her mind powers, kept reading, I went to look for which airplanes left for New York in the next couple of hours.  I found out there are two gates, at opposite ends of the terminal.
      "Diane, anything?" I asked as I returned to her side.  She shook her mane of brown hair, and motioned me to wait a moment.  Then after one last sweep she turned to me in her tight black pants and shirt, and shook her head, no luck.
      "Damn, you go down to that end. I'll take the other one. If you find him come to me, I'll do the same for you." she nodded and we walked apart down our different paths in mortal fashion, there were simply too many people around to use the dark speed with out hurting someone.  At times like this I wished we could read each other minds, but vampires can never read each other's minds, it only works on mortals.  Perhaps this is God's way to prevent us from making others of our kind just to comfort us, or the Devil, I’ve never been sure which.
      I walked down the long hall of gates, looking around and reading minds, until I finally got a image of our dear, and almost dead, Michael from a young lady's mind.  I picked up the pace, not wanting to lose him, but still kept at a mortal speed.  I found him sitting with his bodyguards waiting for his flight, dressed his usual black suit, with his hair combed as if he was just an ordinary man on a business trip. Ha, ordinary as I am to a mortal.  I checked the time of the flight, and I took back off the other way to get Diane with no rush since I had an hour before Michael would be leaving.
      It took me a good twenty minutes to find Diane, since I had to look for her in a mortal fashion because she always cloaked her presence and therefore was not found in any random thoughts of mortals about.  I walked up to her and gave her a big kiss, like two lovers in death, cold flesh on cold flesh.  After also giving her a big hug, I said,
     "I found him, we have about forty minutes before his plane leaves.  He is with two guards.  Any ideas on how to get rid of them so we can grab Michael without any attention?"
      She gave me one of her perfect little smiles, like a little devil and I knew she already had a plan.  "Actually, I have been working on something to show you, and I think tonight is a good night to test it out.  Come on!" So taking me by the arm, we made our way passed the crowds to Michael's gate.
      Diane, my love, was always full of surprises.  After almost 600 years together, she still managed to do something new to keep me on my toes almost on a monthly basis.  Life with Diane is, to say the least, never boring.  And tonight was going to be no different.  As we approached our little drug dealer, Diane took me to the side and began to tell me what I was to do.
     "Now, listen.  I'm going to use my mind to push on their bladders to make the guards go the bathroom.  When they are gone, you go sit down and start talking to him.  When I make a distraction, take him and use the dark speed to get him to that exit over there." She pointed to a fire exit. "I've already unlocked it from here. I want to do it with you, so wait for me." With that she gave me a kiss, and disappeared into the crowd.
      I couldn't help but almost start to laugh, but a big smile made do, making the mortals go the bathroom. Now there was a good one, it had never occurred to me in all my undead life to do it.  I got near where Michael was sitting when the guards started to get impatient in their seats, finally they both got up and told Michael they really had to go to the washroom.  Michael was a little annoyed that they had to leave him alone, but he let them go anyway.  So after the guards left, I took a seat, and started to have a talk with Michael.
     "So, off to New York to make another deal, Michael?"   He turned to me with his blue eyes wide.
     "How do you know me name?" his voice filled with worry, as his hand slid down to the gun in his right hand pocket of his suit.
      "Oh, I know you very well Michael.  I know all about your poison, that you sell to kids, and the deals that you make with the men from New York, and even that you like to sleep with a gun under your pillow at nights."
       "I don't know who you are, but you're not going to be able to tell anyone else." he said, while his hand went to his pocket. Moving too fast for mortals to see, I went into his pocket and grabbed his gun before his hand even got there.
      "Looking for this?" I held his gun in my hand, calmly smiling at his amazed face.
      "Who are you?" His face had changed to one of real fear.
      "Who is not the right question, I believe your looking for the word 'what'.  Don't worry about that.  Now, where is your warehouse?  Where are the drugs?"  Michael's eyes were getting wider yet and he look like he was going to lose his mind and scream in terror if I didn't get him out of here and quick.
      Almost as if I had asked for it a fire broke out in a near by soup place, not a big one, but enough to send people into a buzz of confusion.  So taking my cue, I took Michael and used the dark speed and was outside before anyone could tell we were gone.
       Michael at this point was almost going nuts, so instead of trying to ask about the warehouse him again, I read his mind and in the chaotic flashing of images of all the horror movies he had seen I got an address of it.
      Just as I got the address, Diane came to us.  Walking calmly as if she had never just committed kidnapping, vandalism, and endangering over 50 lives, just to get one drug dealer.  Michael, not knowing who she was, relaxed a touch.  She came to me gave me a kiss.
      "So where are we off to, love?"  she asked.
      Michael then just couldn't handle any more and fainted, which was a good thing.  It made it easier to use the dark speed and get him to the warehouse without hurting him.  After all, we had to ruin his life before we would touch a hair on his head, otherwise it just wouldn't have the same poetic justice to it.
      The warehouse was a truly nice building, a shame that we had to burn it to the ground.  But taking Michael inside we tied him to a chair and then put all his poison around him and carefully soaked the entire place with gasoline except for Michael and a pathway to the door.  Then we gave a call to the fire department before we lit the place.  After all, we didn't want to burn down half of London for a drug dealer, just his drugs.  Then Diane roused Michael from his little nap, and I used one of the most useful dark tricks, I snapped my figures and the place light up with orange flames, and you could hear Michael's screams to God for help.
     "Poor Michael.  You’re with a pair of devils now, there is no God for you." I whispered aloud.
      Diane and I waited for a few minutes to let Michael get to the point of sheer terror, and then I used the dark speed and the trail we had left and rescued Michael from the flames.  I dropped him to the ground him coughing and blessing every saint he knew for his life.
      Ah, the look on his face when he saw it was us who saved him, it was the horror of the fire all over again for him, if he wasn't tied up I would guess he would have gladly jumped back in the fire to get away from us.  But we were just getting started.  It was only 11:30pm, and we had hours before dawn to kill.
      Our next stop on our little tour of terror for Michael was his own beloved house.  Now this house was a very nice house, a lovely little courtyard with flowers, paintings everywhere on the inside.  I fell in love with it and I think so did Diane.  We were in the market for a new resting place during the day and Michael's house seemed like a very nice place to live in.  So first things first, we got Michael to sign over ownership of the house to Diane and me, and to fire all the servants with large compensation packages of course for the short notice of the firing.
      After that I picked his computer password from his mind and logged on this wonderful invention of this age called the Internet.  Using this lovely new tool, I took all the money from Michael's dummy companies and poured them into help organizations for people with drug addictions that Michael had caused.  I made sure Michael got to watch ever signal bank transfer, to see all his millions vanish in one night.
      Now, Michael had lost his drugs, his money, and his house, in essence most of his life lay before him in ruins.  But we just couldn't be nice and just kill him right off the start, so we decided to drain him till he was too weak to move and let him live for a while.
       I held him and Diane began to kiss him, working down from his lips to his tender throat.  I loved to watch Diane, she always was so good at feeding on people, They never knew what hit them till after their heart had almost stopped beating.  Taking her cue, I went down to the other side of his neck, and like a pair of lovers, we drank from him.  His blood flowed warm and thick into our mouths, filling us with a joy that mortals can never feel.  It is one only felt by a vampire drinking.  I dropped Michael almost dead and weak as an old man to the ground, kissed Diane's still warm lips and savored the moment.
      Michael moaned in pain for most of the night, and when he was almost able to stand, Diane and I would take turns draining him just a bit more so he would drop back down to the ground.  This went on for hours, him gaining strength and us draining it, till we had an hour before dawn at most.  Michael's mind was a mess every time we read it, he was losing his mind as the night went on, and he was completely gone in the head when Diane and I killed him at last just before dawn.  We lit a fire in one of the big fireplaces and sent Michael's body into the flames, burning away any trace of what we had done to him.  To the cops it would just be another drug dealer's death, a cause for joy and thankfulness, not sorrow.
     I took the bones to the warehouse and placed them within the ruins, while my immortal love made a place for us to sleep in the basement of our new home.  Ah, Michael was a good hunt.  I had a marvelous time killing him, but with dawn coming fast I slipped into my coffin at the new house and laid down to rest. I had had a long night, and tomorrow we had to find our next drug dealer.  Thanks to Michael's computer we even had a list of names to choose from.
 

Midnight Cacti
By Sky Sorenson

<all names have been left absent to protect the innocent...er, whatever.  Sorry about the sometimes confusing use of pronouns>

     After two decades of rebellion which didn’t work, it was time to find another way to impress his sire.  Relations were awkward in San Antonio, where everyone knew his anarch past, so when the Archons came through recruiting for the war against the Sabbat in Mexico, he joined.  For the Kindred in San Antonio, Sabbat in Mexico were a real threat, and it was a chance to gain some prestige, in addition to defending his mortal homeland.
     The Archon leading the battle group was an ancient Gangrel with battle-scars covering much of his hairy body.  His tactics were known to be unorthodox, but effective; who complains when you lose a handful of neonates when the enemy is annihilated?  Joining this particular group was a lot safer, he felt, once he found that he was going to be responsible for ‘artillery backup,’ not disposable front-line scrappers like some of the others.  This was his first introduction to tracer bullets, and Sabbat or not, it was a little uncomfortable to be packing ammunition designed only for causing final death.
      Entering the heat of battle was something completely new.  Gang raids and drunken brawls are nothing compared to the sight of a Gangrel archon, eyes glowing red, muscles bulging and little snorts and snarls of rage escaping while he lopes out of an adobe hut shaking with violence to grab a fleeing Brujah teammate, bodily throw him back into the hut through the wall, and leap up over the hut to come crashing through the roof, feet first.  The M60 machine gun was on its second belt of ammunition before the fighting seemed to be more or less over.
     Walking past the twisted, burned corpses torn apart by machine-gun fire, he was nauseated; bad enough to have to see rotting bodies being caught up with by cheated Time, these were all hideously deformed Tzimitse.  Pistols in hand, he entered the first in a series of huts and from then on, all his memories of the evening are vague: flesh-crafted torture victims, a Ventrue turned more-or-less inside-out, and gore, blood, and bits of unnaturally speedily decaying flesh.  Everyone was leaving a 3 metre berth around the hut that the Archon was still in, as he let his frenzy out on the walls, floor, furniture, and finally roof of the last hut.
     Still on edge from the fight, he turned and decided to do a room-to-room sweep, making sure the closest hut was cleared.  Something was funny about the hut, the back of his mind said, but the images of death all around made it hard to pay attention.  As he stepped into the kitchen, he was paralyzed; the blue dress and white apron with embroidered roses hanging in shreds from the body whose heart appeared to have been pulled up through her nose belonged to his mother.  The woman who had been made into an upside-down cross with her skull spread to make a stand was his older sister.  He came to with two Brujah, his friends from San Antonio, holding him down.
 


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